May 03

What’s unknown to me….

I want my awareness to expand.  And I would like my vision to widen.  Yes.  To be more receptive to things… and perceptive of things.

With all of that…  I want to be open to new ideas, and sights, sounds, tastes, thoughts… feelings and emotions.  Wouldn’t you know?  This can be difficult…   because it means I often have to step away from what is comfortable and “known” to me.  But it is good, I think.

This awareness means growth and learning.

Yet.  Dang it.  I can still be judgmental.

The Daily News is good for this.  Here’s the thing.  In the U.S.A., we are supposed to be innocent until proven guilty.  Oh how easy it is for me to convict someone without knowing much of anything.

Let’s take recent news story of “The Tanning Mom.”
Patricia Krentcil, 44, pleaded not guilty earlier this week to child endangerment charges for allegedly putting her daughter in a Nutley, N.J., tanning bed. (Some reports say the girl is 5, others say she’s 6.) Tanning Patty told news sources that she’s become the victim of a witch hunt.

A  Tan Witch Hunt in Nutley.

Now….  once I heard the story… I thought… “Oh certainly not.”  Then I saw the news clip on the morning news.  Patty is beyond tan.  She makes John Boehner look like a Bratwurst Wiener.  She is leather, beef jerky, tan.  Well done.  Throw the Original Recipe out the window.  Patty is Extra Crispy.

Immediately, my little judgmental-self has pounded the gavel on the bench.  Guilty as charged.

I am not proud of the times when I do this… but I do.

It not only happens when I watch the news.  Sometimes… I do this when I am in public places with a lot of people.  I make judgements.  I don’t mean to… but Holy Smackerels… the creep up on me.  Creep is a good word for it.

The thing of it is… I get so upset when people are judgmental of me.  Without knowing anything about me, they may make conclusions about who I am.

So I try to jerk myself by the left earlobe when I find myself doing it.

Widen my awareness.  Broaden my vision.  Open my mind……

Tomorrow I am going to work on putting my little gavel away.  Maybe I’ll stow it in my tool box.  That little mallet might be good for fixing things.

“Learning is like rowing upstream; not to advance is to drop back” –  Chinese Proverb

“Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens.” – Carl Gustav